cookie bake off

We mixed up some plain ol dough and went at it with whatever we could get our hands on to enhance the flavor...or something like that. Simply amazing. One thing Brett has tried to educate me about is the science of baking a big cookie. It must be soft and doughy on the inside. Umm well that didn't happen this go around. He got after me for not taking them out when he told me too. So he relished in the fact that he found one doughy center and than kept the rest of the unbaked dough to himself to put to good use for later.

And in case anyone is wondering; the pool closes at ten ;)

It's all about the food

didn't you know that's what sports are good for? Get with the times.

So with The Nuggets on vacay I have filled my time with other silly nonsense because nothing compares to my love for basketball. However in the moment I'm able to forget about it and have some fun! In between soccer, baseball, and football I've been able to forget for a moment that my precious Nuggets may not be able to get it together this season. So for now I enjoy the other stuff.  But what good would the other stuff be without the food.

Well like I mentioned we did the whole sports thing. We were looking forward to nachos and it never happened! Out Of Control!

So after one of our excursions out we hit the hot-tub and than we decided the best way to top off the evenings events would be to partake in nachos. Not ballpark equivalent but still legit.

staying up late - eating nachos - discussing mindless matters; only one way to sum it up. endless summer is still around HUA!

how I do

My summer went something like this.

I was able to utilize the pool this summer for catchin' up on gossip with the girls, getting some sun, and well really anything went but I also put that time to reading! It was fab; anything from silly history books, to The New York Times, mindless magazines, etc. But the one that hooked me and I put all other books on hold for the time was that of The Hunger Games series. Have you read them? I finally bit the bait and I loved every second of them! Now I'm into the series of The Uglies...it's another trilogy and it's amazing!

u bake nite

Best recipe ever for pizza dough! My dad played/coached softball in Barnwell and they always made this with dry ice root beer. Too bad we didn't think of root beer to chase our pizza with but heck it stood its ground. It was amazing! We had fresh garden tomatoes with fresh basil and spinach and well you get the idea. Delicious!

{u-bake pizza}

1 tbsp dry yeast

1tsp sugar

2 tbsp liquid oil (i used evoo)

1 tsp salt

2 1/2 cups flour

Dissolve Sugar and yeast in water. 

Stir in oil and salt.

Make well in flour and pour in liquid.

Knead until smooth; divide into two portions. 

Bake at 425

Not so sweet

Anyone here love Crush Soda? Well I do and the one thing I love most about visiting Canada is that they have more readily available flavours; pineapple, peach, grape, fruit punch, strawberry, and they even had a cream soda that was to die for. However none of these hold a candle to the most important of all - LIME! It is divine.

Well while on an outing with the Madre she encountered some Lime Crush. Doth our eyes deceive us? No sir it looked like the real deal. So we snatch it all up and check out. Well she said if it's a limited time we should buy as much as we can. So we do just that-clean out the entire case and while waiting in line I think we should try it just to make sure it. Which is silly why would it not taste legit? Long story short - we put back what we hadn't paid for and skulked on out of there. It was devastating. It was NOT Lime Crush. NO siree. So for those that have found this new lil heaven on earth don't do it. Just back away slowly. One more reason to return to Canada - and soon! I am in dire need now that my taste buds were expecting it - so it must be. Canada or bust!

FML

My friend Jonathan being the good pal that he is and who has my back sent me this link. So what kind of friend would I be if I didn't pass this lil gem along? Here it is ha ha enjoy :)

let the races begin

So I'm pretty sure I've always been bad at Mario Kart but I was kindly reminded recently at one of our gatherings. I could just blame it on the boys but really it was all me. I really do stink at playing. Bummer, eh? Okay well it was partly the boys fault...they didn't tell me who I was! lame right?

The future is now

So when you go to a Rapids game it's not just about the game but about the dippin dots. I had no idea...and really I could do without the whole concept of the ice cream of the future. {thought we already were in the future} But for Jimmy it's his fave thing to indulge on. I think they taste like styrofoam so I took a pass. But apparently it still sales. I guess I missed that whole craze.

it's on

The grill that is.

Eating is just a necessary thing in life; and if one is lucky it's not just viewed as a must but as an enjoyable memory in the days that whir past us. Well for us it's no secret we love getting together and we love putting the grill to good use. Here is Danny's marinated chicken. Doesn't it look well honestly who am I kidding it's raw! But the finished product is amazing! We've enjoyed it not just once but twice now - like I said it's just that good. 

working hard

or hardly working...such is the life during endless summer time. 

{i asked for a smile and this is what I got} 

not just any ordinary day

Reese and I had a play date - we played house, discussed Halloween costumes, colored, and best of all we ate puddin' pops! Not just any bland ol' flavor but Strawberry Lemon! Delicious!

saddest.story.ever.

Jade plant has root rot. But don't go jumping to the conclusion that I was the one that gave it a lil too much love in the water department. Nope that was the madre. When it began going south she was so nice as to gift it to me. I'd post a picture but it's just pitiful. 

The Real Deal

So last time I was together with all of the crew was in January right before surgery. It was long overdue and we loved every minute of it. I can't seem to get enough...Lance thought it would be a genious idea to snag a photo of our faces in a circle. He said he's never been a part of one and it's been a life goal or somewhere along those lines; as you can tell we went along with it. Can't believe summer is coming to an end.

Snow anyone?

So although I love summer with a fiery passion because it's amazing in all it's sunny splendor in which I bask in daily. However I am desperately wanting some snow! I'm crazy, right?! I just really fell in love winter this last year. Well since it's not going to snow anytime soon I did the next best thing. Watched my fave show Gilmore Girls and snuggled up with my woobie and enjoyed them enjoying the first snow of the season. LOVE it! However it is nice knowing that I'll be laying out poolside for another several more weeks. xo

for one moment

eternally 23

So I've been thinking that 23 was a good year and I lost a year with my surgery so I felt justified in not growing up yet. But I figured that part of getting older is having some class. So my friends it's time to embrace it. Here's to being 25! And here's to the inner child within all of us...we all want to stay young, right? Or is that just me ;)

I've caught the fever!

Must it always end in death?

and if it must...I appreciate a lil bloodshed.

I read my first ever Nicholas Sparks novel recently....it was the first one I've ever been able to make it through start to finish. {The Last Song} I was impressed. So attempted The Notebook and I made it to page 17 or so. I guess I just don't get it. You think I'd learn by now that I am not really in love with any of his books turned movies. I had a night where Dear John seemed like an innocent way to enjoy a girls night in. WRONG! SO wrong. I don't ever get it. Someone always dies. ALWAYS! I get that Sparks is a good author {right?} and that his writing is real and writes about real life but everything has death. I'm surrounded by death. Someone always dies. Love stories don't need to have death. Do they? I mean eventually but I guess the one thing about Sparks is that it's never too predictable I mean I know someone is going to die I just always spend my time consumed with thoughts and theories of who is going to kick the bucket. Ugh romance movies kill me! Never again! Okay maybe I'll cave sometime in the future but for now I'll stick with the bloody gory stuff.

Holla Holla

Oh brother!! I know I know I've been in a blogging coma for a bit. But it's because well remember my last post? Well the wind died down and the sun came out!! So in honor of today being the longest day...and the start of summer I thought I'd post!

I thought I'd share this lil gem with you. As you well know I love Ellen and she introduced me to this video. Oh it made me laugh. And than it made me think of some of my recent adventures.

I went to the Summer Jam a few weeks ago with Rachel. It had been rainy but we were hopeful it would hold off until the end of the evening. (the concert was outdoors) Well no such luck...I'm not sure if the universe was on our side that night or not but I think it's for the best that we didn't stick it out even though it was a down pour. We had some good laughs because we realized we were a little old to be in attendance. Between the girls that were dancing in the rain in nothing but a string bikini {when she just shouldn't have} to the ankle monitors and the cloud of smoke resonating over our heads it's for the best that we bailed early. The smell of weed was getting to be a lil much...

I need summer!

I just keep telling myself that if summer happens than life will get better. Because I'm a firm believer that sun and pool time just makes things a-ok. But until than I'll just fill you in on what I've been up to. Recently in pt Nicko has me working on flexibility and strengthening; especially in my core. Because well it's not strong because let's face it bed rest will do that to you. So here I have some pretty solid ankles but weak legs and core to go along with it. Doesn't really compliment the new ankles, right? Anyways yoga has been the main choice of torture. I usually will do it outside with the shiny sun and some nice 80's music to make it enjoyable-however it has been so windy that I just about up and blew away the other day. I think mother nature has Colorado confused with Kansas. Man I can't wait until this weather is calm and warm and I can just enjoy the sun poolside. Summer needs to happen - and SOON!

Home from Neverland

Lance says I'm growing up; and I gather this is a statement one would like to hear. I was more than happy to take it as a compliment. I'm glad that I'm recognizing that there of course are always sacrifices to be made but the end result because of said sacrifice tastes sweet. Now that recovery is over for the most part and I'm beginning to piece together my life - ah ha moments are all around. Don't let the gloomy forecast get you down...there are silver linings all around!!

Mix Tape

I LOVE music! Not in the whole 'music snob' sorta way - I don't need to know who the artist is or if it was a huge hit. All it takes is hearing it just once and knowing that it is good music. I'm not picky or selective but I know what will make me feel better and what will not. I give everything a chance and I usually don't hate on it. Friends are like that in my life as well. I know what my fave all time hits are, the one hit wonders or flops, the classics, the oldies but goodies. You see music is so much more than just music. It's a good analogy! So go enjoy this mashup or better yet this one!! Music makes me happy!  Love to you all on the Friday!!

the whole world?

So who would win? Robots or werewolves?

Sunrise Service

 

For Easter nothing huge went on in my world. But it wasn't just a typical weekend. Not only was it Easter weekend but the opportunity to listen to General Conference made it all the sweeter. There was so much to take in and learn. On Easter Sunday at the Red Rocks Amphitheater they hold Sunrise Service. Rachel and I decided to get up just a few short hours after hitting the pillow; at 4:00!! We had fun enjoying the calm of the morning and taking part. We skipped out before the sermon but overall it was beautiful and wonderful to realize that so many people can come together to learn of Jesus Christ and feel of his love. Which is just what we continued to do as we listened to General Conference.

Hope you all had just as wonderful an Easter as I did; minus the Chinese Easter dinner! ;)

six feet under

Or at least it feels that way.

Cameron is my doctor, and he's phenominal! He truly has made a mark on my life for the better. And I trust him. Obviously one would have to do so to go through what I did. Although that trust has never been questioned I have for sure done my fair share of being a defiant patient. I blame the drugs or perhaps it was all the bedrest. Maybe it was both but I cannot be held accountable, right? So back to that whole trust thing. I believe he knows what's best for me; from a helping Stephanie recover standpoint. Do I always like his input? No. But I recognize that it's not about taking the easy way out. I MUST remember that the time invested into this last year does have sacrifices. Blood must be spilt and tears will be present. I had forgotten I am not past that point yet. I still need to give a lil more to gain a lot more.

Long story short; I have gym clearance! Do I want this alloted to me? NO But hey what the heck I just sit around all day anyways, not like the gym will hurt me. WRONG! So wrong. I used to love the gym. Now I will find any excuse to not want to go. Pretty hard to come up with an excuse when you have no job and no comittments. But it's been a few weeks now and even if it is a love hate relationship I do wake up each day feeling just that much stronger.

My sunshine!

If this face won't make you smile than I don't know what will?

Let's Run!

{definition of my last year-seems to be a good fit}

So now that I've had surgery and been through therapy guess what I can do? I get to begin incorporating back into my life things that before said operation I was unable to participate in.

First on the list; run! I had to learn how to walk without a turn out. It was pretty tricky but I've now got the hang of it. I'm not supposed to do any running yet. But as long as I watch the inflammation and monitor the pain levels I can begin to train for long distances.

I really love biking but after a while it gets old. So today was day two of the regime I was introduced to. It helps prep your body for running again. So basically I do all the normal therapy and stuff that I already do just adding this into the mix three times a week for 9 weeks. My pt says that in about 2 months I should be running 3 miles easy. That's what he says. We shall see - we shall see.

psht Easters got nothing on my Chinese Easter

So while mum's away the menu becomes very predictable around here. Dad loves Chinese and he's good at making it. But for me I really have to be in the mood for the assortment of dishes he cooks up. Don't get me wrong; it's delicious. However if I'm off to the gym that night I don't really want to eat Chinese. I'd rather grab a water and some fruit.

The point of this post you may ask. Well here it is Wednesday and since Sunday guess what's been on the menu? What was that? Chinese? Why yes, you are correct.

Dad asked me tonight, "Are you getting sick of Chinese? Wait are you even eating it?"

Well you guys I had some for lunch on Monday, does that count? Anyways he decided to fire up the grill tonight and opted for burgers and hot dogs. Hmm...guess he figured I was sick of Chinese.

Guess I know what I'm eating for lunch tomorrw.

some music for Good Friday

'Run'

Until further notice...

Celebrate everything!

Todays Special: ThunderSnow!

Oh have you guys ever heard of thundersnow? It can at times be the most amazing things to witness; in my opinion anyways. Well Colorado is such a wonderful place to live I believe for the weather alone.

Anyways this spring storm is always a force to be rekoned with and I wouldn't have it any other way. It means summer is on it's way!

Our 7 day forecast is giving everyone a nice tasting of mother natures unique spring styling. Fantastico*

Now scamper off and go play in the snow...or just watch it sitting cozied up next to your fire. Either way embrace it!

adventures of costco

You know how much I love going to costco! Recently I had one of those adventures. I am never EVER let down EVER when there. Today a mother who I deemed as cute when at first sight lost major points when I saw the unspeakable. The poor kid never saw it coming! Well I should give him more credit, he did spit it out upon plugging it back in. He spit his binkie out and it dropped onto the warehouse slab of cement directly down from the restrooms. {ick! just think about the foot traffic} She swiftly picked it up and attemtped to make it seem as though nobody was watching...popped it into HER mouth for .5 seconds and then attemtped to shove it in his. Umm gross! Srsly!? He wasn't even in need of it! I haven't decided if I want to assume the worst of said mother or give her some benefit of the doubt {yet to decide what that would be} Anyways g.r.o.s.s. I'm not hatin on you if you do that but really just know that I wouldn't do it.

death by pine nut!

I made a discovery recently. Thought I'd share with you in case you are still out to lunch on this particular item of business.

Study of interest: pine nuts

End of the day deduction: The soi tastes fabulous in my green bean recipe, my homemade pesto, and even loved on my goat cheese and balsamic spinach salad. However I have some alarming news that has been brought to my attention.

pine nuts were given their name for the precise reason deduction exists. They taste like a pine tree. Do nuts come from trees? Don't answer that. All I know I have fooled myself into thinking that pine-nuts are delicious because I cook with them often and they taste good as a tertiary compliment.

The point: Just because something looks good from far away {or in a culinary dish where in theatre terms for lack of a better phrase "has no lines."} I know I'm wordy-it's also after 3am and after the night medicine. Anyways what was I saying oh yes, sometimes things are good because they bring the best out in others - but they don't always know how to bring the best out in themselves. SO after eating said nuts tonight I am saddened that it took me so long to make this simple discovery.

note to readers I didn't confirm my allegations, I'm assuming they taste of pine trees because they are pine nuts and pine trees are their given source. What do I know? I know you know enough to figure it out on your own! Best of luck!

crash down

These drugs sure do make one emotional. I'm a wreck! I usually know the stages of the specific ones I take...however I've introduced a new one into my life and it is doing some great things but I don't know for certain if it outweighs the bad. I can't gain control of my emotions. Okay well maybe that has something to do with the horrible expereince I had at pt today. Pretty sure I've worked in the health field long enough to know that germs=no bueno and apparantly this pt doesn't know that. Well I can't say that-I assume she does but she has chosen to disregard and take her chances. However putting the rest of her patients at risk. OSHA is not a joke and germs are not to be taken lightly. Yes some can be good in moderation but I had enough to last me a good year from exposure today. Am I even making any sense. I don't feel too well and I have a huntch I'm going to call my bathroom floor my home for the night but I'll tell you more about my horrible no good very bad day soon.

My low of the day...

The bad taste physical therapy leaves in my mouth. But chase with some Gossip Girl and a Coke and I think StephMae will come out on top!

Celebratory Cookies!

I like this whole sleeping thing. Two nights in a row of 12 hours of sleep! It's blissful and I'm in love! It's Monday which means it's a baking kind of day! I am going to bake up some cookies that are full of love! {and chocolate and mint chips} I think I deserve of yumminess for being such a good sleeper! Love to you all on this chilly Monday!

Sping has sprung

Or has it? And are we even ready for this time change?

All I know is that I'm going on 48 hours of NO sleep! Yes, I already had my meltdown. It was handled, no worries.

However the time has come to skip ahead an hour. Could it have come at a less convienant time than now? I think not-karma is out to get me. I just know it.

I'm taking some sleepy medicine tonight so cross your fingers that it won't kick me to the curb and keep me there...too long.

some sunshine

Perfect day for a bike ride...and that's just what I'd be doing if it weren't for the small fact I'm laid up in bed. But one can hope! I love that the sun is beginning to make a home again outside my window.








It's been winter far too long.

Did you watch?

I didn't neccesarily watch. I just made sure it was on my DVR for future reference and fast forwarding. Oh com'n, what? I'm sure most would agree they watch it for the fashion.

Gotta admit KStew was looking better than usual.

And I know I'm on TeamEdward but gotta say his competition always seems to clean up better.

SJP was not looking too hot. I don't think Carrie wouldv'e been proud {although most would dispute me}

When did Georgey get all gray!? I still drool...remember One Fine Day? Ooh love it!

I saw the most amazing shoes! Makes me want to validate wearing something other than flats. Oh wait, didn't I just have surgery on my ankles?

Love LOVE LOVED the diamonds on Cameron Diaz...especially this ring.

Did you see her makeup? I love her eyes!

Rachel McAdams may have looked like some window treatments off of 90210 from when I was watching it back in the 90's but no matter-she beams and the dress is beautiful. {i know contradiction} Let's go watch The Notebook!

J-Glow! You truly glow...but when it involves cut-outs all I say is "nuh-uh" {facepalm} Still love ya but next time don't skimp on the fabric...loves!

Lastly isn't Ryan Reynolds gorgeous?!

Love him, love The Proposal and of course love Sandy! So if you didn't catch the show, not to worry I just helped you out ;)








{all pictures via}

"I work as a mortician."

Yes, I watch television and at times I even attempt to validate the amount I take in. No validation but last night I sure did get a laugh.

A new cycle of ANTM aired. Did you hear what I heard? Classic top model I tell you!

"your wig was your good luck charm"

"Girls? Is Megan Fox a supermodel?"

"These girls will be hatin on me, mmh hmm!"

I need to get out more! But until than a lil top model, or gossip girl won't hurt, eh? Love it!

One of those days.

I really just had a day where I wanted to curl up in a ball and burrow into a hole for an undetermined amount of time. But if I did that than I really would never walk. Walking isn't really my love at the moment. It pains me to not be able to just jump back into a normal lifestyle. However, I knew it could never be that easy. It was totally the exception the last surgery. Hearing things like "healing ahead of schedule, and walking better than expected, stronger than ever, etc" Well I just figured mind over matter and I could defy the odds again. Well not so much. Each surgery has had its ups and downs and I can't compare. This is hard. My mum and Doc agree that it may just be that I've just forgotten how bad the pain really was last time. I don't think that's it at all. Sure it is a good explanation but you see ever since I was 9 my right foot has given me grief. It's just been my lot in life for my right foot to give me a headache. So why for one second should I act surprised that I've had issues all along the way? Do you agree with me that is okay to think this way? Because I'm saying it and yet I know there is a better deduction of reasoning here. Although I may not want to hear it at the moment I know one exists. I laugh at the thought only further proving it's validity.

Onto more pressing matters though; I made cupcakes and cookies just in the last week and have yet to care if I eat any. Just baking has made me feel like 'me' again! But really all I really want to sit back and enjoy is some good ol' ketchup chips with some iced tea.

Today I love...

My cotton jersey sheets. If there is one thing I know it's that these sheets were made with me in mind. I believe it! It makes living in my bed that much more enjoyable, or would that be tolerable ;)

An update...still in loads of pain but the drugs seem to help. I'll begin physical therapy this week, and more than willingly welcomed crutches back into my life for the time being.

Ooh an award! I love awards...they are loverly. A huge thank you to one cool lady over at My Own Brand of Crazy! She deserves some cupcakes!

Here's the deal, the rules state that

1) Thank and link to the person that gave you the award.

2) Pass the award on to 15 Bloggers who you've RECENTLY discovered and whom you think are fantastic.

3) Contact said Blogs to let them know they've won

4) State 7 things about yourself.
 

I gift this to:

DunnThat
Finding Forget Me Nots
MyFaveTeam
HenlineGoodness
Kelly Belly
Jess&Brandon
TawnaKins
Some Mayhem
LittleMissPaige
HappilyEverAfter
Found Love in Colorado
Bitemarks
LoveStory
BallFactory
DardenneDudes

7 things about me

I love the sun! And you can still get tan even when you wear sunblock. Whoever taught me it didn't - you deserve to burn!

I don't like to drive. Because of my ankle problems it would hurt to drive for more than 15 minutes. Hopefully that will change here soon.

I LOVE watching movies in 3-D. It's always worth the extra dough. PROMISE!

I hang out with mum every day! She is my best friend.

I LOVE basketball!

I love to bake, however most the time it always has something in it that the one boy I would gift it to wouldn't eat. So he just goes without. More for me!

I am going to Roswell, New Mexico in a few months. Any thoughts on this?

Enjoy your Monday! I'm off to the dr...for fun!

a protest

So I think I'm boycotting this whole walking thing. Besides walking is totally overrated, wouldn't you say? I've had loads of pain since I began walking a few days ago. I have a wonderful Dr who helped me feel confident that nothing is wrong. In his words, "things are just ready to get a move on" well not his exact words but something like that. My pain is easily an 8.5 and I even took pain meds per my doc. That barely takes the edge off. So I wait, not very patiently I might add to see him Monday. Let's hope it's nothing serious. I haven't jumped to conclusions yet, but one can only wonder.

I miss my cast, I never thought I'd find myself saying that. Makes me recall when Anne Shirley attempts to do away with her red hair..."I thought nothing could be as bad as red hair. Green is ten times worse."

I thought nothing could be as bad as that wretched cast, boy was I wrong the boot will be the death of me!

I love iced tea! I remember my first encounter with tea. I was about 6 and my friends mum taught me how to make sun tea. It was so fun learning about it. However I just couldn't fathom how something so pretty could taste so disgusting. Well now it's all I can do not to drink it daily! I love it. But I'm kind of a snob and it has to be made a particular way. And ps sweetners ruin tea! If you are one of those sweetners out there...you are ruining your experience. Anyways to the point, shall we? I just wanted to share that I haven't had tea in about 6 weeks. Can't trust anyone else to make it for me. So today was my first day making it again and oh how I've missed it. Grand to have been reunited with it's splendidness!!

Have a lovely weekend!

Got a minute?

If so - I just want to take a minute to whine!

I'm such a baby! I am in so much pain and I feel like it's been so awful this second time around. I just think 'suffer in silence' it'll pass and all will be well.

Well it's not all well, and I am in my own lil hell hole at the moment. Gotta keep the perspective, remember it's worth it. I only slept just shy of 4 hours last night - so I'm off to bed. Hopefully the sleep will help with the pain. If not I can always settle for cupcakes.

At least it's the 'in' thing at the moment.

Asymmetrical - lack of proportion, opposite of symmetrical.

If you watch The Bachelor than you know by now that asymmetrical fashion is in. However fads come and go...scars however fade at a much slower rate. The point I'm trying to make? Well just read.

So the week following surgery I had an appointment to see my Doc. He was going to change the dressings and hopefully give me positive feedback. Well upon removal of the wrappings I had to do a double take. I saw stiches and blood and icky stuff but none of that bothered me. It was the placement of the incisions that got to me. I noticed they were in different locations than the left foot. I asked him if there was anything to be done about that...and he laughed. He thought I was joking! Pretty much NOT. I'm not symetrical! What's a girl do? Well for now listen to some Neil Diamond and forget about everything else.

Yeah yeah yeah, I hear ya now...como que Neil Diamond?

Reality Bites

So I fell in love with a new show last fall while chillin in bed for those 7 wonderful weeks. Curious to know what show that may be? Okay well actually it was more than just one show but the one I'm talking about tonight is Dancing with the Stars. It sucked me in and I really liked the line up they had. Anyways, they announced the new line up during The Bachelor tonight. Umm Kate Gosselin?! Are you serious? I don't think she can handle the show. I mean she can't even handle the hideous extensions she adorned her head with, why does she think she should be in LA when she has 8 kids to be taking care of. Whatever. Ha ha but Jake {the Bachelor} is also in the lineup...I've seen his attempts at dancing. NOT pretty! Anyways it should be interesting.

I'm missing my rem cycle

Remember when I wasn't sleeping and this is what I felt like? Umm pretty much I'm still there.

So the other night I wasn't sleeping...it was just like any other night really. However I decided I'd take the matter into my own hands and do something besides tossing and turning. I fell onto the floor and crawled down the hall to the top to the landing. Well needless to say I was too tired by the time I got there I didn't want to make the effort to get down the stairs. {if you must know I was going to crash on the couch and watch Twilight} Well since I was too tired to go down I thought well I'll just lay here and rest a moment. Well that moment turned into several hours. I woke up with the worst pain {from the awkward sleeping postition} and dragged myself into my bed...just feet away from where I was momentarily residing. So hopefully after I get my cast off this week and downgraded to a robotic foot I'll sleep a lil more soundly. I'm not banking on that just yet though. Happy Monday my lovelies!

At the moment

I am terribly missing this lil girl - she makes me feel happy all the time! Chels, any chance you could send her my way?? She can play with me ALL day every day!!

Don't wanna miss this!

How have I managed to miss the amazingness of this commercial?! It may have been that it was much too early to be up and about on a Saturday but I laughed forever! I love it - didn't matter how many times I watched...I was still splitting a gut. Hope you enjoy-oh I know you'll enjoy!

Best field trip YET!!

It's true, I'd rather be laying out - poolside, sipping soda and listening to some Akon or along those same lines. But seeing as duh it's frigid cold out that's out of the question. I can't wait to have this cast off and have it be summer! Best thing to look forward to...well I lie. Walking is the best thing I'm looking forward to. Oh but back to the point. Since I can't have that I'll take the next best thing. An outing! Not just an outing but a sleepover! I left the house in my pj's and have a new scenery to take in at my friends house! It's so great to be somewhere other than my house. And I LOVE it!

Off to watch another chick flick and down some Coke! No wallowing here tonight! I'm not messing around, gotta take full advantage of being out.

Grab a coke and take a sit, because I just did

I went to 3 quilt stores in 3 days. Do you know what that means?! It means I got out of the house! I of course went to the Dr but that isn't an adventure that is doom! So of course I buried myself in my bed and didn't want to come out and my mum insisted I go for a drive. I did and you know what? I had fun! We even went to Costco. Umm not as fun as last time...but I still got to drive around and eat samples! So hello of course it was amazing! Every time we manage to go out I actually never get out of the car. {with the exception of Costco well because I would do anything to drive the lil cart around.} Each day I get in the car with my ice cold coke with lime and just enjoy the view. Every time I think, "Why is it I didn't bring a book/magazine/suduko?" Instead I sit for 20-30 minutes while mum shops around. Yet I am completely content with doing just that. Until one doesn't have it you forget the simple things you take for granted.

It just reminded me of a field trip I took I'd guess in the 2nd grade. We walked to Albertson's. Doesn't that sound incredible? Well at that time it was, and that is comparable to how I feel when I get to go out. It's just nice to go somewhere new. And we even got cookies from the bakery on that field trip. Umm simple and fun! That's how these adventures are for me today. Simple yet fun! So do something today that is just that! Unless you are doomed to a hectic schedule and than I don't pity you because I've been there and done that. And don't see myself going back to that. Instead these days I watch tv like it's my job. Should I be concerned? NAH it's normal, right?

a memory remembered, a truth told

How beautiful is this? It is a picture of a field of mustard seed. I was introduced to the vibrant fields of yellow on a visit to Canada back in 2006. It was so spectacular to see - and it went forever...as far as the eye could see. It was than that I didn't miss the mountains and realized flat was good. Flat could be beautiful! Cliche to say but 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder'

I had such a wonderful experience this last week. Another truth that the Lord is aware and that He does know each of us. My dad spoke in church this last week about the love of God. And what a beautiful way with words my father has. I walked away happy that the concept was refreshed in my memory. There is one thing that will always be there, The Love of God. It's consistent - it's ever lasting - and it runs so deep...and I've come to realize in the last several months that if I have simplicity it's easier to recognize the daily proof of His hand. And as I thought about this I remembered the mustard field, and it made me happy.

The Right Attitude

I have a feeling it's that time again...for an attitude adjustment. My tantrums and meltdowns are more frequent as of late so I decided to read. I've always been able to retain things I read if I write them down. So you get to take in some of the learned wisdom as well today. This is an excerpt from my collection...this was recorded in 1975...and here we are decades later and it still is teaching! It's just that good! It's a lengthy story but don't let that stop you.

The great overland bus came to a stop. I looked out of the window to see the fringe of a small town. On the other side of the highway, pastureland stretched in many rolling acres. Suddenly I turned from that peaceful scene to see the reason for our stop. One lone passenger entered. The young man, hesitating a bit, looked shyly around. Noting the vacant place beside me, he asked haltingly, "Do you mind if I sit here?"

"Not at all," I answered, "I like company when I travel. Do sit down."

He removed his cap and slid into the seat. After a moment he inquired, "Going far, lady?"
"Only as far as Fort Worth, that is my home," I replied. "We will be there in a little less than an hour."
"Think of that," he said with a seeming air of relief. "I've been hoping I'd run into someone from there. Don't know much about the place; I grew up on a ranch far out beyond where I boarded the bus. I'm on my way to Fort Worth, but I don't know how to find the school once I am there."

"What school is that? Maybe I can help you," I said.
"It's that real big school; college, I guess you'd call it." Then he went on gravely, "You see, I'm just out of the army, and I'll get to start school. Servicemen can go, you know, and Uncle Sam pays for it."
"You'll be a student at Texas Christian University?" I asked.
"Oh, I don't know just where they'll send me, but I'm all excited over having the chance to go at all. You see I didn't have much schoolin' as I grew up. But before I get started anywhere I have to go to the Forth Worth School, an' take what they call an 'attitude' test. After I take it, they will know where to send me."
"Poor dear," I mused, "he means aptitude, but I can't embarrass him by explaining."
After a short silence he asked enthusiastically, "Ain't it wonderful what they are doing for us guys--sending us to school?"
"Well," I suggested, "the government feels that you did a lot for your country; it is the least the country can do for you."
"Maybe," he drawled, "but what's fighting a few battles amount to if a fellow can get educated? I'm getting the big end of the deal, lady. I've made up my mind to study real hard. I don't want Uncle Sam's money throwed away on me."
Later we stood in the Fort Worth bus station. In his shirt pocket was the slip of paper that was to give him his "attitude" test. With a strong calloused hand he gripped mine, "Thanks a million, ma'am. I feel like I am already on my way to be gettin' that schoolin'. Ain't it wonderful?" As I settled myself and my bags in a taxi, I began to review in my mind the gratitude and enthusiasm displayed by the prospective student. "Why," I thought, "he has the priceless ingredient for success--a right attitude." Perhaps he had used the correct word, after all.

 [ Victor L. Brown 'Eternal Priorities' adapted from A.B. Wells, Sunshine Magazine, September 1963]

Pretty in pink!

So I did NOT want to get up today! It has been such a long week and I did so much yesterday that I just wanted to stay in bed. However if there was one thing I'd be willing to get up for it would be for a new cast! So off to the doctors - and the whole way there I was explaining to my mum that I was so excited and I was getting scared to have that stinky walking boot and pretty much wanting her to agree with me that I know what's best...umm truth be told - I don't!
                  {Not the point though.}

So I arrive to the docs and we're chattin it up and discussing what's next in the process and than he drops the news that I didn't want to hear...dun dun dun. "Ready for the boot?" UMM NO! I wanted to escape and threw a bit of a tantrum. Well it was worth it because after discussing the pros and cons of going into the boot he finally said, "Okay, what color do you want?" I was elated!  So now I have a pretty pink cast! So much better than a dumb boot that's meant for walking that I wouldn't even be allowed to walk in. So of course the right decision was made. And now I want to eat a donut! If only I had one...oh brother!

{In the mean time...I'll go party with the Barbies! Which by the way have pink casts as well!}

let me tell you

My friend always will listen to me, will take naps with me, laugh at me, tell me when I say something dumb,  come up with gay raps from those dumb things, go places with me, and best of all - he makes me feel loved without ever asking it of him!

This is Lance...have you met him? If not you should get right on that. No but really he's a nice addition to the Anderson household this last year. Pretty much he's new competition in the 'Dad's favorite' {of the single status that is} category...fyi I think I'm losing!

Watching Lance play Bop-it Extreme 2...he was wiggling his hips and really into it! It got a genuine laugh out of me so it's most definitely blog worthy.  Thus the post. He's makes up for the lack of brothers in my life at the moment. But I don't see them moving to Colorado anytime soon...so Lance will do.

Also great news! I get my cast off tomorrow...only to get another one on! But I'm proud to say I lasted an entire week without getting this one wet!

And the Nuggets won! And I spent the afternoon watching curling. Anyone else into that?? I find it really fun to watch and the men's US has a fine looking bunch of boys so maybe take a gander...just sayin ;)

An end to a long day...

I absolutely LOVE hot chocolate...especially this kind!

I ventured out today for more than just the typical dr's appt...I am so grateful I survived. I'm sure it was a combination of company and my hearts desire but either way I enjoyed church SO much! I've missed it. So after an exhausting but exciting day I'm feeling calm and relaxed and sippin on the aforementioned. 

Find the part that's leading you...I know I have!

A friend put me in possession of a stethoscope before my surgery...I never knew how much his sweet note would stay with me through this. But it has...and as I sit here with a lil anxiety and much on my mind I just need to recognize my heartbeat; and REMEMBER!

"When things seem scary, or out of control, take out the stethoscope and listen to your heart beat. When you do, you'll remember who created that heart and how much He loves you. I know He sends His angels to be with us in our hours of affliction, seen or unseen, every beat of that heart they will be by your bedside watching over you."

"Can't you even IMAGINE you're in the depths of despair?"

For those that love Lucy Maud Montgomery than I'm sure you recognize where the title for my post came from...Anne had questioned Marilla. At times I ask myself what it would feel like, to despair. But Marilla comes up with the best response. "No I cannot. To despair is to turn your back on God." Well it's as simple as that. I trust my prayers are heard and my hearts desires are known...I don't walk this recovery alone. The best knowledge I have! Love to all!

I haven't had a really good nights sleep in so long...I can't even remember when that was. It's been just under a year since I began my physical therapy. I love my physical therapist because he opened my life up to an option I really had deemed off limits. I never once considered surgery as an option yet oddly enough I always knew the day would come. I just didn't know when...and after years of pain I finally knew it was a decision that would change my life. And oh how it has! I've begun to see the ways it is changing my life...and although I still battle pain it's different than any I've ever known before. I classify it as a good hurt. Because it's the road to recovery...it hurts. I hate it and I will at times wallow in my own self pity and cry for hours into the late hours of the night but I wouldn't ever take this decision back EVER! I think about the things I did want a year ago and where I wanted to be. Yeah I still want those things but I'm glad they got put on hold.

So here I am tonight...and my week has been not so wonderful...I hate the medicine but at times I feel it's my only escape. Even if just for a few hours. While waiting for the medicine to kick in I find myself reading. Several years back I began compiling a binder full of articles and talks I'd print up. So on the nights like tonight I open that up and read one. Tonight I chose one that I love for several reasons and I'd like to share just a small portion of it.

"As experiences accumulate in our lives, they add strength and support to each other. Just as the building blocks of our homes support the rest of the structure, so too do our personal life experiences become building blocks for our testimonies and add to our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ."

 full aritcle here

I'm off to cry for a bit...afterall Anne says that "Tears don't hurt like the ache does." I believe it and practice it!

{colorado summer sunrise! LOVE it! Thought I'd share it with you!} 

Don't mind me

So Tawna! I love you...and I wish you were here to celebrate with me.

Alright onto more pressing matters of my mind...I have always had this knack for if things are feeling like they are out of control or uncomfortable for me I bake/cook. Well it's SO hard to get around these days and the kitchen is the last place I should be. I can't believe that I have taken a handful of things for granted! It makes me human I know but still although much easier this time around I continue to fool myself into thinking I can do more than able. I forget that something as simple as well-actually anything that I have to get out of bed for {so everything but sleep!} is hard. However it isn't so bad once I realize sleeping helps pass the time...and sleep helps your body heal. Literally...did you know that!? I think it is so cool that our bodies know how to put us on the mend. I am beginning to feel like being alone is normal. I have trouble talking to others because I am socially inept! My Dr not my foot dr but my gen dr is so nice I love her and she met with me shortly after my last surgery. She told me texting and facebook is not a means of communication for one in my situation. It tricks my brain into thinking that I'm actually social but in reality I'm in my own world. I start to ignore and begin to lose patience and get bored quickly while others are over. So I began to notice that happening as of late. It is frustrating because I am a social person I love talking with people. It's a LOVE! But at the moment I have no enjoyment from that or anything else for that matter. I enjoy playing suduko in bed while listening to my ipod on shuffle. So now that I really have let you in more than the norm for me I figure what's it going to hurt. I'm grateful that I have individuals in my life that acknowledge me and love me and genuinely show interest. Whether I know it or not I feel it! PS how does one feel about St George, UT...they have an In n out so it can't be that bad right? Just throwin it out there!

it's been one of those days...

This should do the trick!

Let's play what if with Ellen and Ali!

OH I can't get enough of it! Listen to this scenario that Ellen helps play out for Ali...

cast survival 101 or lack thereof

Yeah so that whole soggy cast thing leading to fear of cleanliness - it's back. It's 3 am and well let's just say I just don't think I'm meant to have a good cast experience this time around. I think I've set a record for amount of casts in least amount of time! I loathe this extra appendage. {in case you haven't noticed that is 3 casts in 7 days} All I want is a relaxing shower but karma is not on my side. What'd I do? Maybe it's my Dr and I'm the round about way of making his life hell...it's his karma. Well gosh now it all makes sense. I'm sure he'll love my deduction of reasoning tomorrow when he asks what happened this time.

And have you ever heard of trench foot? Yeah pretty much if I don't address this issue that's what I can get...let's just say it's nasty, gross, and I could lose a foot! Eek! I'd take getting yelled at by my Doc than that any day...but he's too nice to yell. So he'd just shake his head and slap his palm to his face. If I come up missing the next few days it's because I'm curled up in a ball crying because I just can't win.

{consider yourself warned}

Have I mentioned before that I am grateful for my surgeries? I'm sure I haven't because it's hard to admit that. But guess what? I secretly am. And in more than just the 'pain free' objective grateful sort of way.

Life is hard...life is what you make...life is fragile... and I'll be the first to admit it's easy to get caught up in the hooplah of dramatic events in my life. However I never have looked back on something and thought "wish I'd taken something of greater value from that." However I've been worried that if I'm not careful with how I spend my time as of late I may just look back on my year with that thought of wishing I'd taken more.

My surgery was a necessity; but to what extent? Having been in pain for 15 years - roughly 75 percent of my life time I had deemed it as 'life' and 'normalcy'. I am grateful for my whim to get back on a longboard that ultimately put me where I am today. And for the faith I've been blessed with to know that the end result, no matter what it may be is for my best.