FML

My friend Jonathan being the good pal that he is and who has my back sent me this link. So what kind of friend would I be if I didn't pass this lil gem along? Here it is ha ha enjoy :)

Must it always end in death?

and if it must...I appreciate a lil bloodshed.

I read my first ever Nicholas Sparks novel recently....it was the first one I've ever been able to make it through start to finish. {The Last Song} I was impressed. So attempted The Notebook and I made it to page 17 or so. I guess I just don't get it. You think I'd learn by now that I am not really in love with any of his books turned movies. I had a night where Dear John seemed like an innocent way to enjoy a girls night in. WRONG! SO wrong. I don't ever get it. Someone always dies. ALWAYS! I get that Sparks is a good author {right?} and that his writing is real and writes about real life but everything has death. I'm surrounded by death. Someone always dies. Love stories don't need to have death. Do they? I mean eventually but I guess the one thing about Sparks is that it's never too predictable I mean I know someone is going to die I just always spend my time consumed with thoughts and theories of who is going to kick the bucket. Ugh romance movies kill me! Never again! Okay maybe I'll cave sometime in the future but for now I'll stick with the bloody gory stuff.

Holla Holla

Oh brother!! I know I know I've been in a blogging coma for a bit. But it's because well remember my last post? Well the wind died down and the sun came out!! So in honor of today being the longest day...and the start of summer I thought I'd post!

I thought I'd share this lil gem with you. As you well know I love Ellen and she introduced me to this video. Oh it made me laugh. And than it made me think of some of my recent adventures.

I went to the Summer Jam a few weeks ago with Rachel. It had been rainy but we were hopeful it would hold off until the end of the evening. (the concert was outdoors) Well no such luck...I'm not sure if the universe was on our side that night or not but I think it's for the best that we didn't stick it out even though it was a down pour. We had some good laughs because we realized we were a little old to be in attendance. Between the girls that were dancing in the rain in nothing but a string bikini {when she just shouldn't have} to the ankle monitors and the cloud of smoke resonating over our heads it's for the best that we bailed early. The smell of weed was getting to be a lil much...

At least it's the 'in' thing at the moment.

Asymmetrical - lack of proportion, opposite of symmetrical.

If you watch The Bachelor than you know by now that asymmetrical fashion is in. However fads come and go...scars however fade at a much slower rate. The point I'm trying to make? Well just read.

So the week following surgery I had an appointment to see my Doc. He was going to change the dressings and hopefully give me positive feedback. Well upon removal of the wrappings I had to do a double take. I saw stiches and blood and icky stuff but none of that bothered me. It was the placement of the incisions that got to me. I noticed they were in different locations than the left foot. I asked him if there was anything to be done about that...and he laughed. He thought I was joking! Pretty much NOT. I'm not symetrical! What's a girl do? Well for now listen to some Neil Diamond and forget about everything else.

Yeah yeah yeah, I hear ya now...como que Neil Diamond?

Reality Bites

So I fell in love with a new show last fall while chillin in bed for those 7 wonderful weeks. Curious to know what show that may be? Okay well actually it was more than just one show but the one I'm talking about tonight is Dancing with the Stars. It sucked me in and I really liked the line up they had. Anyways, they announced the new line up during The Bachelor tonight. Umm Kate Gosselin?! Are you serious? I don't think she can handle the show. I mean she can't even handle the hideous extensions she adorned her head with, why does she think she should be in LA when she has 8 kids to be taking care of. Whatever. Ha ha but Jake {the Bachelor} is also in the lineup...I've seen his attempts at dancing. NOT pretty! Anyways it should be interesting.

cast survival 101 or lack thereof

Yeah so that whole soggy cast thing leading to fear of cleanliness - it's back. It's 3 am and well let's just say I just don't think I'm meant to have a good cast experience this time around. I think I've set a record for amount of casts in least amount of time! I loathe this extra appendage. {in case you haven't noticed that is 3 casts in 7 days} All I want is a relaxing shower but karma is not on my side. What'd I do? Maybe it's my Dr and I'm the round about way of making his life hell...it's his karma. Well gosh now it all makes sense. I'm sure he'll love my deduction of reasoning tomorrow when he asks what happened this time.

And have you ever heard of trench foot? Yeah pretty much if I don't address this issue that's what I can get...let's just say it's nasty, gross, and I could lose a foot! Eek! I'd take getting yelled at by my Doc than that any day...but he's too nice to yell. So he'd just shake his head and slap his palm to his face. If I come up missing the next few days it's because I'm curled up in a ball crying because I just can't win.

how the heck?

srsly I was concerned...I really was thinkin I'd lost all hope for the Nuggies doing well tonight...considering their game on Wed was not pretty. (the shame!) Anyways the won! 126-113 It was beautiful.  Can they do it again tomorrow night? I sure as heck hope they whoop the Jazz.       

sleepless nights

Ugh these sleepless nights may just be the death of me! I can't seem to get on a regular sleep schedule with these surgeries. The drugs certainly have their effects but really all I really want is one night of sleep. Speaking of wants...

Oh goodness you don't even want to know! Ha ha Spice Girls is on the playlist tonight and I'm not sure how to feel about it. Thoughts? I have had the la la la las, wantchous and wannabes playing through my mind ALL night. It pushed me to look up some of their videos. Where do they find these boys they feature in them? Seriously so not pretty to look.

So anyways in bigger news I just want to say that my stiches are itchy and driving me crazy! My doc says seeing as I could get my hard cast off last surgery he wants to hold off on putting me in one. SO that means I'm all guazed up and wrapped and it really isn't all that lovely.

Also why is that boys are so great to have in ones life yet get too many at one time and it can be a lil hard to juggle...keepin my eyes on the one I really want though and fingers crossed - hopefully all will work out in the end.

sudokued out

I ventured out of my room today. That is a huge feat seeing as I'm not suppossed to ;) Wanna know what I got out of bed for?? To watch last nights episode of The Bachelor. Umm yes I know that it is waste of time and it is unrealistic but please the biggest waste of time for me is sitting is bed all day every day so I thought it couldn't hurt my chances of being productive. I sacrificed a few hours of playing sudoku to watch brain numbing television. AND I loved every minute of it~but I just took some more pain meds so it's off to bed for me. Oh and Happy Groundhog day {lameness at is fullest} and here is a video for you to enjoy!


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I found the silver lining!

I'll be off the air for an undetermined amount of time. I check in this morning and by the time you are reading this I'll be sleepin like a baby on Benadryl! So for those that have been tellin me to find the positive in this hardship there it is-sleep!

Anyone up for a game of confessions?

So after discussing hoarding with Gina I started thinking about if I hoard...I've decided it's not hoarding. I just know what I like. Duh, that's why I don't share. However there are a few particular things I absolutely love that I find at times painfully hard to even consider sharing. It isn't cookies, or cupcakes, or well anything edible. It'd be smarter to love the edible because it's easier to do away with. And than you don't become one of the crazy people on Hoarders. AHH that would horrible. Well anyways - on with it, right? I absolutely love nail polish. Not just any nail polish but OPI. I am that in love with it that I know the actual color lines they come out with and the names of the polishes. Who does that? SO I love it, I buy it, and I share...but only if I truly love you. I also love shampoo and conditioner. I tell myself that I need it pretty much every month. Nobody and I mean even the OCD germaphobes go through that much in one month. But I do. Wanna know how? Because I think that my hair hates when I always use the same stuff. I mean it's like how many times can you use a toothbrush before it needs replaced? Totally not the same but it works. I have so much shampoo and various hair products that I just can't go without; my bathroom cupboards are bursting because of such. Lastly, if you came around during my surgery recovery you will know that I basically lived on a mattress of pillows. I love them and hoard them and get mad if they are not with me at all times. So these are not obsessions, just my loves...that I may or may not hoard ;) Gina if you ever wanna trade a cookie for one of the aforementioned items let me know...I'm sure we could work something out!

Out OF Control!

Well at least I know my sleep schedule will be overcome by my drug use
after my surgery. I woke up at 3 this morning and I'm in desperate
need of sleep! My surgery can't come soon enough! And I miss my
sisters :( They all need to come back!

Miranda sings

Miranda loves to sing for anyone. Make a request and she'll do what she can to fulfill it for you. She is that great to her fans. Ha ha ha Enjoy.

girlfriends vs boyfriends

Nation's Girlfriends Unveil New Economic Plan: 'Let's Move In Together'

a merry mormon christmas?

This is why the late shows are worth staying up for...



all in fun of course

Follow through

So when someone tags you on their blog is there a time frame of following through on your end. Or can it just be done when you want? I piddle around a lot these days...on other peoples blogs and avoid posting anything on mine. However seeing as I love Alexa I'm going to follow through now rather than later.

So here it is-in no particular order 10 facts all about me. If disinterested you can skip down to my top 10 list of things that make me happy. And if you don't want to read about me than what are you doing on my blog?? Just sayin'

When I was a youngster I would go to my grandparents dairy farm. I loved everything about it and there were times we were told not to do certain things. Well I didn't listen one of those times and afterwards I learned that sometimes it is best just to listen. Parents on occasion really do prove to know more than kids. Case in point; we would swim in the canals during the hot summer days and it was so much fun! But than there were the ditches used for irrigation. We were to avoid them because if the water was high and moving fast enough you'd be gone in a flash. Well it looked fun - and I just wanted to test the waters out. So I got in and can I tell you if I could've been out faster than I got in heck yes I would have. Unfortunately I was a good half mile down before I even was able to attempt to pull myself out. Holy scary - but the biggest bummer wasn't that I could have drowned but that it scuffed up the bottom of my favorite swimsuit! The one my mum told me not to wear while in the canals. Ha so lesson learned. I never got in the ditch again nor did I ever speak of it until now.


I guess that knocked off more than just one fact about me, wouldn't you say? I mean obviously you know now that I didn't listen very well and defied my elders. So we'll move on to say number four, sounds fair, eh?


I'm scared of needles and to attempt to overcome that phobia I donated blood regularly every 8 weeks for 18 months. Umm yeah and that whole cure me of my phobia-it didn't work.


So now what number are we one? 6? Sounds good to me!


I love my handwriting and I used to be so ocd about having it perfect that after taking my notes in my classes - if I'd messed up I would rewrite them in their entirety to ensure they were pretty to look at.


I got in a car with a stranger once when I was about 7. Scary, right? Umm thinking about it today ABSOLUTELY! But at the moment nah. I was just happy to get a ride to swim team. And to call him a stranger isn't the truth. I knew him but I didn't know how I knew him. He knew me but I couldn't place him and to this day still can't figure out who he was. But hey at least I wasn't late to swim practice!


We went to Vail as a family one summer and stayed in the condos that had the most amazing pool and driving range behind us. I loved it, what I remember of it anyways. But all the condos looked the same so I walked into what I thought was ours. Yeah it wasn't. Wanna know how I knew? Because there were ash trays all over and it smelled like beer. I looked around the place for a few minutes until a lady saw me and asked if I was lost. I told her I didn't think I was but seeing her confirmed that I was in fact lost. She helped me find my way home. Another moment for a mother to panic - eek.


I think these above stories can count as ten facts proving my ability to not think things through. So moving onto the next list.

My top 10 things I love!

I love pretty much everything!

Let's see I love Burts Bees chapstick and have since about the 8th grade! LOVE IT! 9 times out of 10 I always have one on me.

I hands down love to be in the kitchen baking and cooking! It truly can make things seem so much better. I really love trying new recipes and love it even more when I love how it turns out!

I love CD's over iPod any day. There's just something about that ownership it gives me.However I do like that I can watch movies on the go from a teeny screen ;) ha ha

I really love to read; and even more so if I get to do it with someone. Whether in a book club or reading with children or having someone read to me. I love it in all way shapes and forms. Even on CD! ha ha

I love to snuggle up with a nice thick quilt and take naps! It is the best remedy to bad days.

Gilmore Girls. Need I say more??

I love nail polish! I am an OPI snob and own too much for my own good. I paint my nails as often as possible and love it even more when I opt for a salon pedicure! Doorway to my SOLE here I come! {if you live in the Denver area it is the best place ever! It's at Cherry Creek}

I have grown to love my scars. Wanna know why?? Because it's okay to have silly looking battle wounds from surgery. Because it's a daily reminder to evaluate things I take for granted. Like walking for instance!

I love my friends! Even the ones that come for a moment and then blink they're gone. I love the ones that were there and pop in and out of my life. I love the new ones I make and I love be able to recognize that friends are a gift to bless our lives! They will if we but allow it! They are proof that my prayers are heard!

And last I love kids! I think they are brilliant and wise and funny and loving! What joy they bring to my life!!

and to now tag some others...let's see in no particular order I love these girls, I love their blogs, and more importantly I love their friendship!

 But now I'm too tired to link and tag you girls so go ahead and grab a tag and join in the fun! I'm pretty sure you all know who you are! You are the ones that survived this post ;) No but really quick Jenn, Kell, TawnaKins, ChelseyMichelle, Gina, Andrea, Jeane, Lori, JessV, PhillyJess, And well come one come all join in on the fun. Cathy, Tiffany, Brenda, you guys get the idea. I love you all and now share some facts with me about you! LOVES*

nineteen ninety two

There was one year in my life that I had an experience I'll never forget. I don't remember the silly details just the feelings I had that day.

I always tell myself I must've been in first grade...my visual memory tells me so and for that it must be so. I had a wonderful teacher with whom I loved and I enjoyed my schoolmates. I also loved being able to attend school with two of my older siblings. We lived just a few miles from our elementary school and we'd ride the bus to school with all the neighborhood kids.

Onto the event and the moment I'll keep with me for always.

My brother walked home from school one day with one of His friends. I heard about it and told my mother I wanted to walk to school. I am pretty sure it was a lost fight on my part. My mother telling me that one of these days my brother could possibly accompany me on the walk. I'm sure I dragged my feet to bed that evening. However the next morning I told my mother I would walk to the bus stop up the street to catch the bus - not sure if that is accurate but it is how I remember it. I did in fact walk to that bus stop but instead  of stopping and waiting with the other kids I continued on my way. I walked the route of the school bus. For me that is the only way I knew and I trusted it. However after a while I began to get tired and scared. I was beginning to think that walking to school had not been as wonderful as my brother had talked it up to be. I was approaching a turn off from the busy street where there was a house of an older couple I knew and loved. I just knew she would be home and she'd take me in and make me feel safe. I approached their front door and nobody answered. It was then that I began to cry. For I knew there was still a way to go until I got to school and I didn't have the ability to continue. My tired body was emotionally and physically exhausted. I prayed that somebody would find me and make it better. I didn't want to be alone and realized my mother was right; I was too young to walk to school without someone older. That knowledge made it all that much worse, and I felt horrible for being dishonest as well. My stomach was in knots and just when I felt as if nobody would ever find me a saw a school bus. Its driver approaching me asking me what my name was and if I was alright.

The bus drivers on other routes had been notified of the fact that I hadn't made it to school that morning. It is an experience I've always wanted to forget. I felt such relief when that driver found me and took me to school. But all the kids in my class had been questioned about my whereabouts and I felt foolish walking into the classroom that day.

I don't remember really ever talking about it much with my parents after that. But eventually I learned that the route my brother walked to get to school was not the one I had taken. On that day it was a shorter way and one that if I had been patient I would have been able to enjoy all that much more.

Isn't that how it is in our lives though? I got selfish and only saw the end in mind and that I wanted it then and now. I didn't want to wait and depend on someone else. So I did it myself and had to experience something I otherwise wouldn't have had to. I took my way instead of being patient. I also know that my Heavenly Father heard my simple prayer that day of forgiveness and asking for help. It is the same with anything else we go through in this life. Our prayers are heard and He will never abandon us. He knows the end from the beginning and we need to trust that. I know that at times it is hard to remember the simple things we know. But that experience is one that will forever be with me. It is truth that at times what we want isn't always how it should be, however we still have the opportunity to choose. I know that my Heavenly Father will be there always, even at the moments of darkness and shame. For a 6 year old that is all I felt that day, yet when I turned to Him, He provided a way! I love this gospel and I love the power of prayer. May we all take advantage of it! Surely Heaven is with us if we but give heed!

I can't do everything

But that doesn't mean I won't attempt anything at least once!! I went to physical therapy today and I have a love hate relationship with pt. Oh brother! That sounds like everything in my life. Moving on... 
Ha ha sometimes I hear the most random things and it makes me wonder what the tuna people were thinking. Does it even phase them that they sound ridiculous? Well I guess I don't have room to talk because I am guily of this at times too but still...I have to wonder.

I don't judge, I will be your friend. Because I can but don't think that just because I am your friend I won't point out some of the dumb things you say and or do. Puh-lease isn't that what friends do??

So I am going to try my attempt at something a few of my fellow bloggy friends are doing. Where each post represents a year from their life. I'll not subject to silly ramblings but I'll be sure to tie in some silly experience to a real life point in my day to day life. Keep your eyes peeled for me to get a start on that.

And for those of you that care, the Nuggets won last night. And I know they had a horrible first half and yes I was worried they were going to lose. But proves that worrying makes no sense. They came back strong in the 3rd quater and I am sure proud of them! Now let's continue bringin it at tomorrows game against Miami! Loves*

This lil light of mine...I'm going to let it shine!

So I have a lot of everything stored up my lil head and the majority of the time I never share a good 2/3's of it. I share loads of random ramblings, videos, pictures, but it's been a while since I've written anything with substance.

I shouldn't be hard on myself because this is a blog...there are no expectations, right? I get feedback from many sources...and I mostly take that feedback and do absolutely nothing with it except store it away.

But I thought I would take a moments time and jot down a lil something to help everyone know who it is that is behind this blog. Some I know personally in my day to day life, some are friends of friends, and some I know only through the wonderful technology of the web. I love all just the same. And I love sharing pieces of my life with you.

Anyways I thought it'd be interesting to let you all in on the things that I am currently doing at the moment. Doing a quick glance of this blog from the last month it would appear that I am a pill popper looking for my next fix who spends way too much time cruisin youtube. But I promise it's not all true!

SO here is a glimpse into my world...for realz this time.

***I love hand written notes! I love receiving them. I love giving them. I love the assortment of cards and envelopes that I can find these days! I always carry around blank cards with me. I keep them in my purse, my glove compartment, my scriptures, my current read, well you get the point. I love letting people know of my love for them. Perhaps something I observed or something I felt or just sharing with them the simple message that they are loved!

***I love to study anything and everything! I usually will take mental note of things that come up in conversations and look it up as soon as I find a spare moment. When living in Provo not too long ago that I miss it but long enough it is missed {did I just contradict myself} I always tried to live as close to the library as I could get! I love the library!! Towards my last semester I lived just a block away and every day after clinic I would make my way to the books. I never really read fiction or novels for that matter. I was more of a real stuff kind of girl. But end of story I love to read, I love to learn and I love to know what other people know and I love to share with others what I know!

***Did you guys know that I love lighthouses?? I love what they represent and I love their purpose. They are beautiful buildings and no matter what I love them! While in Cape May, NJ several summers back I stayed in a cottage right on the boardwalk just under a mile from the Cape May lighthouse. I was there for work and had every night free. So each evening I would find my way to the beach and walk the shore to the lighthouse and along the way I would take that time to just think about life. It was the best experience. I loved that time I had to myself to take in the beauty that I was surrounded by. It was the best experience and so magical!

***Did you guys know I have studied four languages?? Who does that?!? But not the point...I hardly retained anything that would help me in my moment of need. Like asking my way to the toilet or what is safe to eat you know the important stuff. The one I love the most and still study will most likely do me the least amount of good. Most individuals don't even know what it is. Dying to know? It's Tongan! I love studying it, I love reading it, I love speaking it. Unfortunately it is mostly self taught and I have no idea what I'm doing half the time but on the plus side I know how to ask where the best place to go fishing at night is with a torch in tow. See totally something I could use. Duh! So a shout out to Sugi who introduced me to the Tongan culture and language 5 years ago.

***I love dancing! And if there is amazing music it makes that much more incredible! I love to watch people dance, I love to learn about the specific dances, and props to those that do it and do it well! Because I am so not coordinated to do it well! But no matter because I still love it just the same.

***A random lil fact about me...I know about stones. My sister taught me and what she did teach me has remained. I don't know enough to really teach others but I know that because it is something Ashley loves I love to know about it. I admire her for how much she knows of natural holistic healing remedies or what not. I don't know how to describe what it is she knows but she knows a lot. And for that I admire her. Just wish she didn't live so darn far away.

There's plenty more I could talk about but I'm choosing not to do so. It is a feat if you were able to make it through the post without being bored to pieces. My mum says I write too much and she doesn't like to read it...but I took the peeps and halla and fo sho's out and maybe that will make all the difference! Love ya mum!

MJ Tribute

So Sam Tsui is brilliant along with his friend Kurt Hugo...here is a one of many videos they have put together. And I promise I'll be back to writing and not just uploading here soon. Promise!! My brain just isn't what it used to be! Loves*