It's all about the food

didn't you know that's what sports are good for? Get with the times.

So with The Nuggets on vacay I have filled my time with other silly nonsense because nothing compares to my love for basketball. However in the moment I'm able to forget about it and have some fun! In between soccer, baseball, and football I've been able to forget for a moment that my precious Nuggets may not be able to get it together this season. So for now I enjoy the other stuff.  But what good would the other stuff be without the food.

Well like I mentioned we did the whole sports thing. We were looking forward to nachos and it never happened! Out Of Control!

So after one of our excursions out we hit the hot-tub and than we decided the best way to top off the evenings events would be to partake in nachos. Not ballpark equivalent but still legit.

staying up late - eating nachos - discussing mindless matters; only one way to sum it up. endless summer is still around HUA!

The Real Deal

So last time I was together with all of the crew was in January right before surgery. It was long overdue and we loved every minute of it. I can't seem to get enough...Lance thought it would be a genious idea to snag a photo of our faces in a circle. He said he's never been a part of one and it's been a life goal or somewhere along those lines; as you can tell we went along with it. Can't believe summer is coming to an end.

Holla Holla

Oh brother!! I know I know I've been in a blogging coma for a bit. But it's because well remember my last post? Well the wind died down and the sun came out!! So in honor of today being the longest day...and the start of summer I thought I'd post!

I thought I'd share this lil gem with you. As you well know I love Ellen and she introduced me to this video. Oh it made me laugh. And than it made me think of some of my recent adventures.

I went to the Summer Jam a few weeks ago with Rachel. It had been rainy but we were hopeful it would hold off until the end of the evening. (the concert was outdoors) Well no such luck...I'm not sure if the universe was on our side that night or not but I think it's for the best that we didn't stick it out even though it was a down pour. We had some good laughs because we realized we were a little old to be in attendance. Between the girls that were dancing in the rain in nothing but a string bikini {when she just shouldn't have} to the ankle monitors and the cloud of smoke resonating over our heads it's for the best that we bailed early. The smell of weed was getting to be a lil much...

death by pine nut!

I made a discovery recently. Thought I'd share with you in case you are still out to lunch on this particular item of business.

Study of interest: pine nuts

End of the day deduction: The soi tastes fabulous in my green bean recipe, my homemade pesto, and even loved on my goat cheese and balsamic spinach salad. However I have some alarming news that has been brought to my attention.

pine nuts were given their name for the precise reason deduction exists. They taste like a pine tree. Do nuts come from trees? Don't answer that. All I know I have fooled myself into thinking that pine-nuts are delicious because I cook with them often and they taste good as a tertiary compliment.

The point: Just because something looks good from far away {or in a culinary dish where in theatre terms for lack of a better phrase "has no lines."} I know I'm wordy-it's also after 3am and after the night medicine. Anyways what was I saying oh yes, sometimes things are good because they bring the best out in others - but they don't always know how to bring the best out in themselves. SO after eating said nuts tonight I am saddened that it took me so long to make this simple discovery.

note to readers I didn't confirm my allegations, I'm assuming they taste of pine trees because they are pine nuts and pine trees are their given source. What do I know? I know you know enough to figure it out on your own! Best of luck!

crash down

These drugs sure do make one emotional. I'm a wreck! I usually know the stages of the specific ones I take...however I've introduced a new one into my life and it is doing some great things but I don't know for certain if it outweighs the bad. I can't gain control of my emotions. Okay well maybe that has something to do with the horrible expereince I had at pt today. Pretty sure I've worked in the health field long enough to know that germs=no bueno and apparantly this pt doesn't know that. Well I can't say that-I assume she does but she has chosen to disregard and take her chances. However putting the rest of her patients at risk. OSHA is not a joke and germs are not to be taken lightly. Yes some can be good in moderation but I had enough to last me a good year from exposure today. Am I even making any sense. I don't feel too well and I have a huntch I'm going to call my bathroom floor my home for the night but I'll tell you more about my horrible no good very bad day soon.

Celebratory Cookies!

I like this whole sleeping thing. Two nights in a row of 12 hours of sleep! It's blissful and I'm in love! It's Monday which means it's a baking kind of day! I am going to bake up some cookies that are full of love! {and chocolate and mint chips} I think I deserve of yumminess for being such a good sleeper! Love to you all on this chilly Monday!

Sping has sprung

Or has it? And are we even ready for this time change?

All I know is that I'm going on 48 hours of NO sleep! Yes, I already had my meltdown. It was handled, no worries.

However the time has come to skip ahead an hour. Could it have come at a less convienant time than now? I think not-karma is out to get me. I just know it.

I'm taking some sleepy medicine tonight so cross your fingers that it won't kick me to the curb and keep me there...too long.

Did you watch?

I didn't neccesarily watch. I just made sure it was on my DVR for future reference and fast forwarding. Oh com'n, what? I'm sure most would agree they watch it for the fashion.

Gotta admit KStew was looking better than usual.

And I know I'm on TeamEdward but gotta say his competition always seems to clean up better.

SJP was not looking too hot. I don't think Carrie wouldv'e been proud {although most would dispute me}

When did Georgey get all gray!? I still drool...remember One Fine Day? Ooh love it!

I saw the most amazing shoes! Makes me want to validate wearing something other than flats. Oh wait, didn't I just have surgery on my ankles?

Love LOVE LOVED the diamonds on Cameron Diaz...especially this ring.

Did you see her makeup? I love her eyes!

Rachel McAdams may have looked like some window treatments off of 90210 from when I was watching it back in the 90's but no matter-she beams and the dress is beautiful. {i know contradiction} Let's go watch The Notebook!

J-Glow! You truly glow...but when it involves cut-outs all I say is "nuh-uh" {facepalm} Still love ya but next time don't skimp on the fabric...loves!

Lastly isn't Ryan Reynolds gorgeous?!

Love him, love The Proposal and of course love Sandy! So if you didn't catch the show, not to worry I just helped you out ;)








{all pictures via}

Got a minute?

If so - I just want to take a minute to whine!

I'm such a baby! I am in so much pain and I feel like it's been so awful this second time around. I just think 'suffer in silence' it'll pass and all will be well.

Well it's not all well, and I am in my own lil hell hole at the moment. Gotta keep the perspective, remember it's worth it. I only slept just shy of 4 hours last night - so I'm off to bed. Hopefully the sleep will help with the pain. If not I can always settle for cupcakes.

I'm missing my rem cycle

Remember when I wasn't sleeping and this is what I felt like? Umm pretty much I'm still there.

So the other night I wasn't sleeping...it was just like any other night really. However I decided I'd take the matter into my own hands and do something besides tossing and turning. I fell onto the floor and crawled down the hall to the top to the landing. Well needless to say I was too tired by the time I got there I didn't want to make the effort to get down the stairs. {if you must know I was going to crash on the couch and watch Twilight} Well since I was too tired to go down I thought well I'll just lay here and rest a moment. Well that moment turned into several hours. I woke up with the worst pain {from the awkward sleeping postition} and dragged myself into my bed...just feet away from where I was momentarily residing. So hopefully after I get my cast off this week and downgraded to a robotic foot I'll sleep a lil more soundly. I'm not banking on that just yet though. Happy Monday my lovelies!

The Right Attitude

I have a feeling it's that time again...for an attitude adjustment. My tantrums and meltdowns are more frequent as of late so I decided to read. I've always been able to retain things I read if I write them down. So you get to take in some of the learned wisdom as well today. This is an excerpt from my collection...this was recorded in 1975...and here we are decades later and it still is teaching! It's just that good! It's a lengthy story but don't let that stop you.

The great overland bus came to a stop. I looked out of the window to see the fringe of a small town. On the other side of the highway, pastureland stretched in many rolling acres. Suddenly I turned from that peaceful scene to see the reason for our stop. One lone passenger entered. The young man, hesitating a bit, looked shyly around. Noting the vacant place beside me, he asked haltingly, "Do you mind if I sit here?"

"Not at all," I answered, "I like company when I travel. Do sit down."

He removed his cap and slid into the seat. After a moment he inquired, "Going far, lady?"
"Only as far as Fort Worth, that is my home," I replied. "We will be there in a little less than an hour."
"Think of that," he said with a seeming air of relief. "I've been hoping I'd run into someone from there. Don't know much about the place; I grew up on a ranch far out beyond where I boarded the bus. I'm on my way to Fort Worth, but I don't know how to find the school once I am there."

"What school is that? Maybe I can help you," I said.
"It's that real big school; college, I guess you'd call it." Then he went on gravely, "You see, I'm just out of the army, and I'll get to start school. Servicemen can go, you know, and Uncle Sam pays for it."
"You'll be a student at Texas Christian University?" I asked.
"Oh, I don't know just where they'll send me, but I'm all excited over having the chance to go at all. You see I didn't have much schoolin' as I grew up. But before I get started anywhere I have to go to the Forth Worth School, an' take what they call an 'attitude' test. After I take it, they will know where to send me."
"Poor dear," I mused, "he means aptitude, but I can't embarrass him by explaining."
After a short silence he asked enthusiastically, "Ain't it wonderful what they are doing for us guys--sending us to school?"
"Well," I suggested, "the government feels that you did a lot for your country; it is the least the country can do for you."
"Maybe," he drawled, "but what's fighting a few battles amount to if a fellow can get educated? I'm getting the big end of the deal, lady. I've made up my mind to study real hard. I don't want Uncle Sam's money throwed away on me."
Later we stood in the Fort Worth bus station. In his shirt pocket was the slip of paper that was to give him his "attitude" test. With a strong calloused hand he gripped mine, "Thanks a million, ma'am. I feel like I am already on my way to be gettin' that schoolin'. Ain't it wonderful?" As I settled myself and my bags in a taxi, I began to review in my mind the gratitude and enthusiasm displayed by the prospective student. "Why," I thought, "he has the priceless ingredient for success--a right attitude." Perhaps he had used the correct word, after all.

 [ Victor L. Brown 'Eternal Priorities' adapted from A.B. Wells, Sunshine Magazine, September 1963]

"Can't you even IMAGINE you're in the depths of despair?"

For those that love Lucy Maud Montgomery than I'm sure you recognize where the title for my post came from...Anne had questioned Marilla. At times I ask myself what it would feel like, to despair. But Marilla comes up with the best response. "No I cannot. To despair is to turn your back on God." Well it's as simple as that. I trust my prayers are heard and my hearts desires are known...I don't walk this recovery alone. The best knowledge I have! Love to all!

I haven't had a really good nights sleep in so long...I can't even remember when that was. It's been just under a year since I began my physical therapy. I love my physical therapist because he opened my life up to an option I really had deemed off limits. I never once considered surgery as an option yet oddly enough I always knew the day would come. I just didn't know when...and after years of pain I finally knew it was a decision that would change my life. And oh how it has! I've begun to see the ways it is changing my life...and although I still battle pain it's different than any I've ever known before. I classify it as a good hurt. Because it's the road to recovery...it hurts. I hate it and I will at times wallow in my own self pity and cry for hours into the late hours of the night but I wouldn't ever take this decision back EVER! I think about the things I did want a year ago and where I wanted to be. Yeah I still want those things but I'm glad they got put on hold.

So here I am tonight...and my week has been not so wonderful...I hate the medicine but at times I feel it's my only escape. Even if just for a few hours. While waiting for the medicine to kick in I find myself reading. Several years back I began compiling a binder full of articles and talks I'd print up. So on the nights like tonight I open that up and read one. Tonight I chose one that I love for several reasons and I'd like to share just a small portion of it.

"As experiences accumulate in our lives, they add strength and support to each other. Just as the building blocks of our homes support the rest of the structure, so too do our personal life experiences become building blocks for our testimonies and add to our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ."

 full aritcle here

I'm off to cry for a bit...afterall Anne says that "Tears don't hurt like the ache does." I believe it and practice it!

{colorado summer sunrise! LOVE it! Thought I'd share it with you!} 

sleepless in seattle?

Come join me in Colorado.

my downfall

I have had no appetite at all since a week prior to surgery...I just don't do enough to actually work up one. But wow I wanted to eat today and instead I opted for hot cocoa...umm it's a weakness, I knew I shouldn't have. However I am now sick-lesson learned. I'm a weakling, wanna know why? I only worked my way through 1/3 of the mug :( oh brother. What's a girl to do?? Not the slightest but for now what do you think of this song! I'm still undecided, so far I like the beat and duh He's put out loads of good music since my grade school days. Nuggets play tonight and Melo is coming back - we'll see...they sure like to tease me.  

how the heck?

srsly I was concerned...I really was thinkin I'd lost all hope for the Nuggies doing well tonight...considering their game on Wed was not pretty. (the shame!) Anyways the won! 126-113 It was beautiful.  Can they do it again tomorrow night? I sure as heck hope they whoop the Jazz.       

sleepless nights

Ugh these sleepless nights may just be the death of me! I can't seem to get on a regular sleep schedule with these surgeries. The drugs certainly have their effects but really all I really want is one night of sleep. Speaking of wants...

Oh goodness you don't even want to know! Ha ha Spice Girls is on the playlist tonight and I'm not sure how to feel about it. Thoughts? I have had the la la la las, wantchous and wannabes playing through my mind ALL night. It pushed me to look up some of their videos. Where do they find these boys they feature in them? Seriously so not pretty to look.

So anyways in bigger news I just want to say that my stiches are itchy and driving me crazy! My doc says seeing as I could get my hard cast off last surgery he wants to hold off on putting me in one. SO that means I'm all guazed up and wrapped and it really isn't all that lovely.

Also why is that boys are so great to have in ones life yet get too many at one time and it can be a lil hard to juggle...keepin my eyes on the one I really want though and fingers crossed - hopefully all will work out in the end.

The real stuff

I so badly want to just be able to shut my eyes and fall into a peaceful slumber...in my dreams! With the drugs I'm on {oh bless those drugs} it either knocks me to the ground and I'm down for the count or I miss that one moment and I am up far too long into the night. I find that those nights are when I play sudoku. It is something that passes the time and I feel like it keeps my brain functioning so I don't just lose it all while on bedrest. I keep some melodic instrumental music jammin in the background and there we have it-a night in the bed of Stephanie Mae. Love it! Would you?? Hmmph I gathered as much...I am going to set a goal of reading through the end of The Lovely Bones than onto a new one. I also met a boy, a new one that is. Possiblities seem endless but I'm just banking on him not bailing on me this week. Ha ha anyways now that I feel as though I shared a lil more than I normally do I say blaim it on the mama. She simply sugested I write more 'real' or what have you. No pressure right? But there we have it-the mama obviously nudged in the right spot at the right moment because it worked.

Happy Thursday!!

All you need is LOVE ...

Oh and narcotics don't hurt either! Seriously next time I have surgery I think visitors should be off limits. I say things that really should be kept to myself. However that is a horse of a different color. Perhaps I'll share another day. So anyways after spending several days at the hospital I'm home and it feels nice. I could easily do without the pain part but other than that my bed and I are becoming reaquainted and it feels wonderful! Now don't all you come and see me at once! Ha ha no but seriously I think it's going to be a good recovery! Thanks to all who have been so wonderful throughout all of this!

ps it's 3 am and I am playing Sudoku for the mere fact that it is mind numbing! Help!! Any suggestions??

I found the silver lining!

I'll be off the air for an undetermined amount of time. I check in this morning and by the time you are reading this I'll be sleepin like a baby on Benadryl! So for those that have been tellin me to find the positive in this hardship there it is-sleep!

Out OF Control!

Well at least I know my sleep schedule will be overcome by my drug use
after my surgery. I woke up at 3 this morning and I'm in desperate
need of sleep! My surgery can't come soon enough! And I miss my
sisters :( They all need to come back!